Saturday, May 7, 2011

its a wrap, freshman year.

my first year of college is over... say what? I really don't feel like thats happening. A week from today, I'll be moving into a duplex (temporarily) with one of my very best friends and we are going to have no rules and its going to be summer.... meaning that she and I can craft WHENEVER we want. Gosh, Abilene better watch out for this parade of wild thats going to hit them. Anyway, I feel like a reflection of this year is quite necessary so here goes:

School started off rough. Really rough. The days before I left, my family, friends, and I cried enough water to fill a large creek. I was confused and not excited to be here. I never really took "going to college" seriously. Sometimes, I still can't even believe that I've been here. I let ACU choose me by granting a friendly scholarship and packed my bags and assumed everything would be fine. And though it was, its not exactly what I expected. At all. I spent everyday counting down the minutes until I could leave and go back to Fort Worth. I didn't want anything to do with this place and kind of shut myself out socially. Academically, however, I was on a roll. I kind-of amazed my parents and myself with how wonderful my grades came out. It was very liberating to make them so proud. There's not much to say about Abilene for the first semester, I was only here a total of two weekends (one of which my fort worth friends came here). Wow, I know. But either way, that semester was fun. I was in love, on top of things, and learned a lot more about my decision making process.

Then came Christmas break, and I was ecstatic to be home. I worked at power balance and ate mall pretzels all the time, fought with my parents, and spent a lot of time with some guy and my very best friends. I celebrated Christmas with my family and fell more in love with the relationships I have with them.

Second semester rolled around and then the time flew. I took on new classes, dropped Core and Bible because I thought that I was for sure leaving the next year. Cold temperatures brought me a new best friend, one of the biggest blessings in my life so far. I'm lucky for that. I spent weekends having fun out in Abilene, went home less often, and started enjoying myself less and less when I was home. Except one mid-week trip home that made me fall a little deeper for that some guy. Anyway, I had my car here for the first time and was loving it. I got a job at a fro-yo shop and it's kept me busy. I still feel like my first weekend back in Abilene was a few weeks ago so piecing this all together is a little weird and out of order.

Then spring break came and my perfectly good heart was broken and my world flipped upside down. And everything has gone up since. :)
My relationships with my family have grown stronger, my dad is my number one man, and I'm finding myself again. I've been on a hunt for God and he's shown himself through many beautiful people. I've only been home twice since Spring Break now (180 flip, right?!) and I'm about to have my own place to call home here. Strange to think that once I couldn't wait to leave, and now I'm putting up pictures with nails, making holes in the wall, marking my OWN territories.

It's been fun freshman year, thanks for showing me whats UP.